amberleighhh

so.. tired.. out of no where.

phew! I told my mom about my plan for moving out, she's supportive, that's a big weight off my shoulders. It's still months away, but my plan kinda gets in motion now. Gotta start saving up for it.

lunch tomorrow with beef, awesommmeee, it's been so long since we've been able to go to lunch together, eeekkk broke sucks. but that's alright. we're making it.

i might have to leave one of my kitty cats with my parents when i move! =[ so sad about that, i love my babies. haha. but i guess i'll cross that bridge when i come to it.

i've had the munchies all day damnit. i don't want like a real meal, i just want snack food! i'm totally gonna snack before i go to bed, woo. i love when we buy groceries.

wow, i all of the sudden feel like a slug.. way slowed down.. i was really hyper for like two hours haha, out of no where. probably a sugar rush or something. finally slowing down, it's bed time anyway. Today was a pretty good day. I think I'm going to start recording my weight at the ends of my posts [when i remember] so that I can see if I'm changing at all.

i'm not trying to lose or gain weight, i'm just bi-polar and with mood swings come different eating patterns and thats a good thing to keep track of, just like how long i sleep, but I'll just cover the weight part.

welllll, it's time for me to find my snack, watch a show, and get to bed. <3

Today is a better day. I feel alot calmer, alot more chill, and that's pretty cool. I just wish I wasn't alone, haha. I mean, technically I'm not "alone" my parents are home, but with that being said, I'm basically alone. I spent the morning watching tv, and I really am growing to hate it more than I used to. Half the time I don't really watch it, I just kinda zone out to it. Oh well, atleast that passes time. I should probably start doing more productive things with my time, then wasting it infront of the tv.. haha yeah.

i'm still tired from last night, i woke up in the middle of the night to my parents arguing and the dogs barking their little heads off. Quite ridiculous. I might aswell nap before school anyway. Gotta crank out those submissions, get a credit asap.

so i'm talking to my brother for like the first time since he moved to Florida, haha, he's a manager at a car dealership, thats pretty awesome, and my cousin is probably coming home after this weekend, so that's really cool too. Oh, and my sister is moving back to Ohio. HA. I probably won't even see her though, I haven't seen her since Nam, she's stuck in her own little world.


I think I might fancy myself some cookie dough before my nap.. sounds awesome. soooo, yup, thats about all I've got to say for now..
I did get a post on Gives Us Hope, so that's awesome, I'm going to copy and paste it into this journal so I can save it.

=] Beef is adorable, for sure. I haven't even talked to him today, and I'm already smiling about it. I'm a sap.

I feel so blank lately. Really at a loss for words for anything, but I guess that's not so bad.
I've been sleeping weird, atleast last night I was. I kept waking up every hour or so, and I got sick from the vicodin. I'm not in pain now though. I have about 8 book reports to do, and a ton of homework.. I've just been so out of it, not in the right state of mind for anything. Time flies by and I haven't really done anything.
I'm excited for my cousin to move back to ohio, I want to hang out with him more often, we didn't really hang out before he left which was a shame. We used to be close, so hopefully we'll see eachother more.

I'd REALLY like a green tea frap. I'm addicted to those things. Maybe Starbucks puts coke in them.. I don't care, they're fantastic. Either that or a Sheetz chocolate covered strawberry smoothie. That shits the bomb.

I guess that's all I've got to say. I'm still tired from my weird sleep pattern, and I'm excited to see Beef tonight, he's sleeping over, I always sleep better when he's here anyway. So, we get to watch a movie [hopefully Up!] play some poker, take shit down, then cuddle like little puppies.

speaking of puppies. when we move in together, i really want a guard dog. haha but I don't think 3 [maybe 4] cats and a big dog are a good idea for first time move-out-ers. that'd be kinda way too much.. expecially when we both get fulltime jobs, it'd just be too hard. I'm really excited to move though. I can't wait to set up our place, and be able to make dinner together or just be lazy and get Taco Bell right up the street [or just take KFJ's left overs.] I'm really looking forward to it.

Back pain? check. Pain pills? check.
I'm way tired.. It's past my bed time, which is sad because a week ago my bed time was usually 7 am, at the earliest. Now, I go to bed around 11:30 pm every single day.. strange, but I guess that's good for me.. I'm out of it, pain pills will do that to you.
I need a new bed, seriously. That mattress sucks, but it's cool.. I just have to clean my room so I can put the futon in there.. yay futons, right? hopefully..

this post was aimless. I just didn't want my live journal to be empty.. so, here's to filling space.
maybe tomorrow i'll write something meaningful, and start tracking my weight and mood too, so I know if I'm staying on track.